2005-10-10 04:41:00
My Friends,
Below is the last installment from the 2004 Gathering. It may seem hard to believe to those who attended, but the number of words in the teachings is equal to a whole book, and that's not counting the parts that never got recorded.
Actually, some of the best material did not get recorded and that was the words spoken in the healing circle. It's awkward to work with a microphone in that circumstance but we are considering going out of our way to get more on record next time.
JJ
Account 14: My personal experience at the circle was that, evidently I know that I had a block in my throat chakra, and I felt it be removed. Not all of it I'm sure. I'm sure I still have somewhat of a block but at least it's more open than it was before. So that was very tingly. It was kind of a painful one that had gone to my sinuses, actually, because it was blocked for so long. It was kind of painful. But then I can feel it in my third eye more, so that was a good thing. And then when Christ gave us the blessing of what is inside of him is also inside of us, it was like a little taste of what was going to happen in the future. Not a really big taste, but enough of a taste to know that I would recognize it again if it were to happen. I kept vacillating between feeling really, really light-so much so that I couldn't even feel my neighbors holding my hands-to feeling really, really heavy. And my feet hurt because I weighed six hundred pounds. Then I'd go back to being light again. So, that was it.
Account 15: I was just going to share some background about myself. This is the beginning of my fifth year returning to the word and scriptures. I was going down, my guess, the wrong path. And I was brought back to the right path. So, I feel like an infant when meeting everybody in this group because some of you have some years and years and years of study of the word-the scriptures. I've only been doing it now for five years. Yesterday, thank you all very much, you all gave me a positive shock, and from that period on I walk a lot lighter. It seems as though when I closed my eyes in the past, it was dark. When I closed my eyes everything was just dark. Today, after the meditation, when I close my eyes it's not dark anymore. So, that's me.
Account 16: Well, this has been very uplifting to me. During the meditation I felt a great warmth. When I had my eyes closed I had a vision of bright light. This is kind of all new to me, but I felt a great warmth and energy and peace. This whole seminar has been quite an eye opener and enlightening to me.
Account 17: I have a hard time talking about this. I'm grateful for the experience. I was able to kneel at Christ's feet and anoint his feet when he was in the center with us. And I'm grateful for that.
Account 18: I was lucky enough to be standing close enough to JJ to be in that white light. I was feeling a few times there just a little overpowered almost to the extent of tipping over as Susan said and I ended up opening up my eyes and pulling myself back together, physically, so that I could stay focused. With my eyes shut it was a beautiful feeling of white light and the peace and the love that I felt circulating from everybody was wonderful. I think we all shared that-the whole seminar, the whole time that we've been here. It's awesome to see all of us-different ages, different countries even, different personalities-and yet we all have this affinity with each other. And that's just awesome, JJ, that you brought us all together. Thank you.
Account 19: As usual I really enjoyed the gathering and getting to connect with some people that I hadn't known before. The circle experience was like most of you said. For me it wasn't extremely intense, but it was just peaceful and warm. Sort of like Assaf and JJ talked about sending out a flame and receiving it back. I could see the whole group with my eyes closed. I consciously could see each face around the circle and feel it return back to me. And that was a really awesome feeling. Thank you.
Account 20: As I think I said, maybe the other day, one of the neat things to gathering is meeting old friends. But the other side of the coin is meeting a bunch of people you have not met before and finding out just how much you like them and just how much light and love and all these sorts of things that they also radiate. I've enjoyed it quite a bit.
Account 21: Well, Susan's been telling me about JJ's books for years, and I've been really afraid to read them. People have given them to me and I just do not open that book, because it's probably some other weird group, you know, some religion or something. So I think I'll go home and read it. I do have it. So, I'm really glad I was here, and I love the association with people. I think that's what all of us are longing for-just getting together; like minds and all of that-is just so nurturing, I guess you could say. Sometimes we get out in the world and we feel like we're all alone in the way we think and feel. Then we get together as a group and find out that we all love each other, and we know each other. And our spirits connect. So, I really felt like that was what I came for. I made some really good connections with people here. I'm happy that I came. And we had fun. Thank you.
Account 22: I want to thank JJ so much. You've answered a lot of questions that I've pondered for years. You've helped a lot. It was a privilege to be next to you with this first meditation I've ever been through. I saw lots of lights go sparking off everywhere. Warmth was there. It was great meeting all of you. We'll have to get together with you Vegas people. So, don't leave without the phone number, ok? Thank you.
Account 23: Let's see. What I saw in the circle.... When I closed my eyes, when it adjusts and you start relaxing and get really peaceful, I felt a lot of heat from the circle being generated. I was almost sweating. When I shut my eyes I started to see this blue ball. I was thinking in my mind, "Is that what they mean by your third eye? Is that the third eye?" So I just watched this blue ball of light, then on the edge of the blue light was real dark-blue lightening bolts. Sort of like the cornea of your eye, you know? And then it got bigger, and bigger, and bigger, and bigger, until all I saw was just blue light that got brighter and brighter until it was almost ultra-violet. And that's my experience.
Account 24: Well, I'm a little reluctant to share this because there's this documentation which will prove that I'm crazy, ok? I am proving it now. I have to give just a little bit of history.
Number one, I really do not do what the voices tell me. Ok? But at the same time, lately in my life, I have just received information. I wasn't able to verify its source. I didn't want to hear what I was hearing, quite frankly, and I would just kind of retreat and withdraw. One of the things that I've been curious about and want to know about is what I'm supposed to be doing. What's my purpose? What's my part in the plan? In October I had just received this information that I was going to be working with Bryan here, which I totally rejected that information. I thought, "Nobody can make me-the voices, the Rice Krispies-nobody is telling me what to do." Well, here we are. We've been working together and doing things and studying-stuff like that. I've been asking for direction and for revelation, and everything seems to pretty much have dried up. And ok, I can dance, I can sing, I'll do whatever.
On our way down here we were going through the (inaudible) Mountains and I just had this feeling come over me which was like the feeling I had when I received information that B and I would be working together. This was a little more detailed in that it seemed like we are supposed to work together and we are supposed to have a child together. Come on R, you just freaked me out so much when you told me that-"You're pregnant!" You would not believe the people who are coming up to me and saying this to me-strangers, my attorney-all these people are talking to me about being pregnant which is the last thing I want at the age of fifty-two in the middle of a custody battle with my ten-year-old. I'm not happy about hearing this. I'm thinking, "This is just incredible, and I am probably certifiably crazy and psychologically trying to compensate for the situation I'm going through with my ten-year-old son." So, I've got all kinds of reasons why I shouldn't be experiencing this. Yet, that's the truth-this is what I experience.
So, if I don't say what I experience, then in a sense, I'm lying. So I'm just sharing it. I'm not saying I believe it, ok? And I'm not saying anybody else needs to believe it. I'm just simply sharing my experience. People can take it or leave it. My mantra-"I don't care. I do not care." I say, "Why me?" I say, "Why not me?" And the middle way between that is, "I don't care." I had made a decision several months ago and I simply relinquished my will because things weren't working. I was in a situation where I had been living with a diagnosis that seemed to be fulfilling itself. Everything in my life has changed because I just totally relinquished.
So today, during the meditation, I felt a lot of energy coming into me and my body just kind of got really, I guess you could say, goose-bumpily or tingly-that kind of thing. I had a feeling of fullness. I could feel fullness and I could feel light. At one point I was swaying and going with the music. I started singing within my mind this Episcopal prayer that we would sing during evensong (sp?). It's "Holy Mary Mother of God pray for our sins now in the hour of death. Holy Mary Mother of God, blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus." And I just started repeating this over and over and it was like she appeared before me and I could make this choice-I could allow her spirit within me or not. And so I decided to allow it. Let me tell you I think I'm just nucking futs. Ok? I don't have any explanation for any of this. I don't understand it. I'm just simply sharing the experience. Does it mean anything?
Another member: Don't hold back now. Don't hold back.
Account 24: I don't care. I don't care if it means anything. This is what I experienced and I tend to be an emotional person and highly imaginative. This is my disclaimer. I'm done.
Account 25: During the meditation I felt what I might consider to be a typical or normal rush that you experience-the tinglies and what not. But that's been kind of a common experience shortly after I came here, talking to individual people, various contacts we had. So that in and of itself wasn't really unique for me. It's been going on, is my point. It was just a continuation of my other experiences.
Dan mentioned our conversations briefly, and he needs to understand that I also learn when I talk to a person. It's a two way thing, ok?
I'd like to thank Larry for his kindness and understanding. I appreciate your words and your comfort that you offered to me. I enjoyed your kids, too. I really did. I want to just thank you all for participating. I haven't forgotten my conversation with you either, JJ. It's still not finished, correct?
JJ: That's right.
Account 25 (continued): Alright. I want to thank those people that reached out and contacted me. And I want to thank everyone else for just participating and for making it a memorable experience. Thank you.
JJ: Thank you. Give everybody a hand in here.
(applause)
JJ: Do you want to say anything, ____? You missed meditation didn't you?
S: Yeah, I did.
Account 26: I think there's a power just to having people who are united in seeking a higher way, seeking to improve their lives, to share, to be open, to be vulnerable. You can't help but to have a spiritual connection when you're in that environment. I need to be talking to M. I've been through a personal experience that I think she can relate to. The bottom line is, in my experience-and I don't know where she's coming from, I can't judge her or where she's at.
For me, I was in this mode in my life 5 or 6 years ago. I was part of a group similar to this one where really cool people were trying to push the envelope together. The thing at that time was to go direct. Put your scriptures aside, put the reading aside, put the left brain aside, and just listen to the spirit and follow the spirit, and to do what the Father would have me do. That was the theme. We'd get together and there'd be speaking in tongues, and interpreting in tongues, and everyone was just trying to have a good experience and to be spiritual.
For about two months I just went on a trip and a half. I won't go into details because it's embarrassing as heck. I hope the things that I was involved with, with the idea of just following spirit, of whatever spirit says to do that's what you do. And the bottom line is God gave us a left brain for a reason.
There's the male energy, which is left brain, and there's the female energy, which is right brain. The right brain is intuitive; emotional. The left brain is calculating; thinks things through. And we need to have both of these aspects healthy in our lives because if we just go with, "Hey whatever you want me to do God," we'll pull a Dan Lafferty. You know, Dan Lafferty was a Mormon fundamentalist who decided they were going to kill this lady and her baby because they weren't following the program. And in their mind, to this day, he's at (inaudible) Mountain serving in a state penitentiary because they believed God told them to do this. And they will not back down from that.
The point is that in our effort to follow God I do not believe God ever wants us to put our thoughts, our conscience, our choice, on the shelf. Part of ascending, part of becoming like God, is that our will is intact all the way. It's our decision; it's our choice; it's our conscience. We're following our conscience. So, that is the check that keeps us from going over the edge into acts and behaviors and situations that later we'll learn from them. We grow from those experiences.
For what it's worth, for whomever that can benefit, that's something that I went through. In some regards it was a wake-up call to me because that period of time was kind of a culmination of my Mormon experience. Getting into a total zeal of just totally putting everything on the line to do what God wants you to do. I know Abraham is recognized as a great prophet; a great man of God. He was so faithful to God that when God asked him to put his son on the altar, by golly, he did it. And he was coming down with the knife, and had the angel not interceded, he would have done it. I personally think Abraham was way out of line on that one.
That goes back to what we were talking about earlier-the willingness to take these icons of the scriptures that everyone puts up on the pedestal and don't dare touch these sacred cows. Yet, if we're not willing to scrutinize things in our lives, things in our history, we will fall into the errors-fall into illusion. So, just a few thoughts. I really appreciate the quest. I appreciate JJ. I find his teachings to be very expanding. The thing he read today-boy I can relate to that. And he wanted me to finish it. I was totally relating to that sentiment of putting so much on the line. Anyway, thank you.
JJ: Thank you everybody. Again, this is the message of Book 3 of The Immortal-to use the power of the middle way. I don't think Sterling's finished the book so I won't tell him what the key is. The middle way principle prevents seekers from going to one extreme or the other.
Well, I guess all good things come to an end. If there's a beginning there has to be an end. We had a beginning to this experience, and now we'll have an end but we'll carry forward the experience from the invisible endless realms forever. Right? Any of the principles we obtained here we'll take with us-even take them with us to our next lives until we meet again. I appreciate knowing each one of you. You've been a really good group.
Like I said in the meditation I sensed the power of the Avatar from a distance. We aren't ready for any full injection of the spiritual power of the first ray because it's so powerful. It would be really overwhelming. I sensed a presence that's waiting and trusts us just enough to give us recognition that we should move ahead. When we said, "Thank you" to Christ, that felt really nice.
We look on these masters and higher beings like they don't need "thank you's. But no matter who they are we should acknowledge thanks to God, to Christ, to all the servants.
I'll leave with this one statement-the importance of the name of Christ. The name Jesus Christ means "anointed to deliver". "Anointed to deliver" from what? The power of Christ delivers by reaching a helping hand to those that do not have what we have and pulling them up to where we are. And that's what Jesus did when he came here. He attempted to grab onto us and pull us up to where he is. To take upon your self the name of Jesus Christ means to do just that. This is what the scriptures say-to take upon your self the name of Jesus Christ. When you have that name it doesn't mean what it means in orthodoxy. It means to look and seek out the lost sheep, so to speak, that need a helping hand, grab a hold of them, and pull them up to where you are. And when you do that another who has taken upon himself the name of Jesus Christ will take a hold of you and pull you up to where he is. This is the chain that goes on eternally. There's an eternal chain from the greatest hierarchy clear down to us. There's a helping hand extending, pulling the whole chain up. In this vein I would say to the group to remember to take upon yourselves the name of Christ in the same way the great lives have, and seek to deliver those in need. Thank you very much.
Susan: Outstanding.
JJ: One other thing, too. We have a bunch of cups left over, and we don't want to haul them back. If anyone wants a cup-a keyster cup-just go ahead and grab one on your way out. No charge.
Susan: Thank you. Well, I can't believe that it's at an end. It's always sad to say goodbye. But J, our innkeeper here, said that we may not leave until the Rice Krispies are gone. So please take a napkin and help yourself and take some home, would you? And be sure and get your pillows back to the right place, if you would. And drive safely. Hope to see you next year at the next gathering. Bye.
I don't know who my grandfather was; I'm much more concerned to know what his grandson will be. Abraham Lincoln (1809 - 1865)
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